26 May 2012

Wtf insomnia

I can't sleep very well recently, I guess it's not helping that I stay up until 1-2AM sometimes playing PC games and then I just lay awake in bed for the next few hours. Today I have practice at 10AM but I couldn't sleep, no matter how hard I tried. I even tried not trying but that didn't work very well. Eventually I gave up tryign to sleep accepting the fact that I'd probably be unable to sleep so I woke up and drank lots of water and played Diablo 3 in an attempt to tire myself out so at least I can get in a small nap of 1-2 hours. Or maybe that was just an excuse to play more. I have absolutely no self control. Anyway it worked because I became tired enough to take a small 1 hour nap at either 7AM or 8AM, but then I just woke up again at 9AM. I feel terrible right now, I feel like I'm still kind of dream. That one hour of sleep I got was full of frenzied craziness and I don't even want to think about it.......... 

Anyway its both good and bad that I have a few weeks of nothing until PD. Good because I don't have to wake up early for class or anything besides PDAS or meetings, bad because now I feel like I can stay up extra late playing games and wake up at 1PM.

UGH

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SELF CONTROL

21 May 2012

Cool dream about a demon and flight

I don't remember the entire dream, but part of it had to do with a demon so large its skin was the sky. Of course in real life we would have realized this from hitting it with our airplanes and space shuttles, but it made sense in the dream. In the dream, when the demon woke up, its skin changed from fluffy blue to hellish red colors like that molten-lava with black chunks in it, and it was HUGE! 

And then, I could fly in my dream, but... I didn't, because I was scared of falling. Boo! >< All those years of training myself to fly without fear, and finally perfecting it and even growing nice pretty wings... when I went to college I haven't flown as much and now I'm scared. I wish I knew how to "lucid dream" so I could do it again, haha. Flying was one of my favorite part of my dreams.
23 Apr 2012

Wrong Medium

I've been sitting here for at least ten minutes trying to type out how I feel, but maybe it's not something that could be expressed in words.